Praying Easing Me

My life is going crazy...I feel that I cannot gain any control over the events that are occuring in my life. I know that I need to take a deep breathe, maybe more thatn one and remember that I am not alone in my battles. That these jarring events are not of my doing and that I do not need to be in control of these events. Especially I need to have patience in these trying times.

I remembered a biblical quote that "covers" my turn state of mind.

May you be made strong with all the strength that comes from his glorious power, and may you be prepared to endure everything with patience.
Colossians 1:11

I need His strength right now as I face a storm of difficult times. I am feeling like that little sparrow in the storm, a fish swimming upstream. Last night, I bowed my head and prayed that I would find the strength and patience to go on. I prayed for some time, just these words soak into my soul. Letting His words warm my spirit and make my confusion and impatience melt away as I slide into sleep.

This morning, I am feel better. The weight that has been pressing down on me is lifted. I am still facing these difficult times ahead but I know that Jesus Christ is with me.

Decorating This Blog

Haha... I have managed to make my own header. It took way too many hours that I should have spent on my paper, but I did it. I am thinking I might want to invest in PhotoShop or a similar photo editing program though. I have all these pictures and I could be doing so much more with them. I borrowed a background and just went crazy playing around with it. I would start it again and again as I discovered more I could do with it.

I am telling on myself, but I have been pricing the programs and reading reviews. Again all while I should be working on my papers for class. I know that this is bad but I rather be do this than wiriting a paper on the communication dynamics of the movie, The Goonies.

But I better go back to class and try to organize my Learning Team so that I do not spend another late night editing a paper.

The Power of A Smile

I have a confession to make...I can't help but melt when a certain red-headed boy smiles at me. If anyone had told me that a toothy grin would make my day absolutely complete a few years ago, I would have laughed. I had become jaded to many things in my life and my son has brought the wonder back into my life. Viewing this world through the eyes of a 17-month old is a wonderful opportunity.

My heart melts when I see a smile that is meant just for me. A smile that lights up my heart. I have to stop doing everything when I see just that smile. I can't help it. I have tried to captured this smile and it has been very difficult to remember to grab the camera but I finally managed to do so.

This is the smile that stops me. Can you blame me? I have had to put down the comptuer and take a break from the hustle of UOP and the boredom of housework to play with this amazing gift from God.

Rewind to Christmas

It is amazing that the Heathbar Gang is starting a new year. This year will be full of many new challenges and adventures and I, Mommy Heathbar, decided to start this blog as way to show others our joys and triumphs.

Going backwards, Christmas was wonderful. We celebrated Christmas with all of my family this year. We spent Christmas Eve with my dad and new mom, Barbara and my fabulous new sister, Melissa and her wonderful family. Jamie recieved to HUGE Tonka trucks, a talking puzzle and a Little Einstein sub. We were at home for Santa's arrival. My mom was there for the mass confusion and Christmas casserole. Finally, we spent that evening with my sister and her family. I think this is one of my favorite Christmases as Jamie Troy is reaching the age were he loves to unwrap gifts and play with the Christmas tree.

We celebrated Christmas with Lisa this year. We are so proud of her. She is finishing her Master's at La Grange College and will be home theis summer. Patrick is alrready looking for houses for her. Jamie and her are fighting over Jamie's newest gift...the Recliner!

I am not sure who will win but I will keep y'all updated. But Jamie Troy's favorite toy would have to be from Santa. He has been playing with one at his cousin's home, but Santa knew he wanted one of his own. Since Chirstmas morning, he has not left his car. The bar in the back allows for him to push it around the house and even out the door. Patrick and him took on the "road" to see how smooth the ride is and they reported back, saying it had a VERY smoooth ride.

This Christmas has reminded me of the JOY that comes from the season. I had become jaded to the holiday season and for the first time I felt the JOY and LOVE that this season provides us. My spirit is renewed and Myself and my family can continue on this new year with a fresh dose of JOY and LOVE.